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Berawal dari ingatnya uum sama kata-kata yang dulu pernah diucapkan oleh seseorang ketika uum benar-benar merasa jatuh karena beberapa mata kuliah yang dengan sukses tidak dapat uum lewati. Rasa kesal karena ga bisa mendapatkan nilai yang bagus. Kesal karena tertinggal dari yang lain. Kesal karena uum ngerasa uum bisa mendapat yang lebih. membuat uum nangis meler seharian di dalam kamar.

Saking uum sedihnya karena kejatuhan yang sejatuhnya-jatuhnya itu, uum jadi kehilangan kepercayaan diri. Malu. Bahkan uum menjauhi teman-teman yang menemani uum. uum terlalu takut untuk memulai pembicaraan. Malu banget rasanya.  Lalu muncullah pikiran-pikiran aneh di kepala uum. Kenapa sih yang lain -teman-teman uum yang lain- bisa cepat banget nangkep pelajaran yang dikasi dosen ke mereka. Uum, udah belajar di kelas, belajar lagi di kosan, teteup aja ngertinya telat. Kalo yang lain ngertinya ps di kelas, uum ngertinya setelah ngebaca berkali-kali. kalau yang lain pas baca soal ngerti dan bisa jawab, uum ngertinya pas ujian selesai. Telat banget kan?


Hingga akhirnya seseorang itu muncul, dia bilang ke uum gini,


um, Harusnya kamu itu bersyukur, Allah sayang banget sama kamu. Dia dengan baik menumpahkan ilmu yang kamu idam-idamkan itu sedikit demi sedikit. Setetes demi setetes. Dia tidak menumpahkannya seperti menumpahkan air dari keran ke ember. Dia memberikannya padamu setetes, demi setetes. Bukan, bukan karena Dia tidak mencintaimu. Ini Dia lakukan agar kamu menikmatinya. Agar kamu mensyukuri setiap tetes ilmu itu. Agar kamu memahaminya lebih dari siapapun. Dia sedang mempersiapkanmu untuk mewujudkan mimpimu, um. Mimpi dan cita yang sudah kau rajut sejak dulu. Jadi, Jangan berburuk sangka pada-Nya. Berbahagialah um, dia masih sangat mencintaimu.
Dan ada yang bilang begini juga ke uum :


Paling enggak uum sekarang enggak lagi ngerasa orang yang paling lambat sedunia. Karena uum tahu, Inilah cara Allah menunjukkan rasa cinta-Nya ke uum.



Kalian gimana? udah tahu belom gimana Dia nunjukin cinta-Nya ke kalian?



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English version : Just Positive Thinking :)
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Everything start from I remember some words that was said by someone when I was feeling down because of a bad grade in one of my college course. I can't passed that course and need to retake it in the next term. It felt so wrong and unfair. I felt angry, I got annoyed with myself. I got annoyed with myself because I can't keep up my grade. I got annoyed because I was left behind by the other. Annoyed because I think I should get  more than that. It makes me crying by myself in my room. I feel down and alone.


I think it was my mistake and blaming myself, blaming others and blaming everything. I was lose my confidence. It was ashame on me. In order to made myself feel ease, I make a wall, made a distance with everyone, including my close friend. I was too afraid to start a conversation with them.

Then I came up with a weird thought in my mind. Why is everyone can do it better than me? Why is everyone can get everything that lecturer thaught to them faster than me. I, have studied in class, in my room, but still, I can't do it better. Why?? Why can I not understand it? If everyone have understood it in class, I was not! I need to read it over and over and over again. If the others have understood the exam question in time, I was not!, I understand it when the exam was finished. It's too late, right?

Untill that night, that someone said to me

" um, you shoud be gratefull to Allah. He really loves you. He gives you his knowledge one by one. Litle by litle. He doesn't throw it like throwing water to a bucket. He gives you one drop to another. No! it's not like He is not loving you. He do this thing to make you enjoy this. So you can be grateful for every drop you get. So, you can learn it carefully and know it better than anyone else. He is preparing you to embody your dreams. Dream that you create from a long time ago. So, Dont bad think Him. Just being happy um. He still really love you.
And there's someone who told me this too :




At least, now I don't feel like being the stupidest people in the world. Because I know, This is His way to show me How He Loves me.

What is about you?

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